Why Jennifer Lawrence Says It’s “Very Scary” Waiting for Audience Reactions to Her Movies

Jennifer Lawrence is opening up about her fears while waiting for the release of a movie she’s worked really hard on.

The Oscar-winning actress, who stars opposite Robert Pattinson in director Lynne Ramsay‘s new movie, Die My Love, recently told V Magazine that she finds it “very scary” waiting for audience reactions to her projects.

“The experience only adds to the dread, because I’ve had so many experiences of working so hard on something, loving something so deeply, and then releasing it to the world, and the world just being like, ‘Boo! Hate you!’ It is so awful,” Lawrence admitted. “And [yet] somehow, I read a script, I meet with the director, we get on set, we start doing it, and somehow I’m able to forget that this part of the process will happen. I mean, I’m very blessed and very lucky. But it’s a very scary few months.”

The Hunger Games alum continued, “My husband was so confused because he doesn’t have as much experience with this stuff. So I was telling him about my anxiety, and he was like, ‘But the movie’s incredible.’ And I was like, ‘I know, but that doesn’t matter. People might not get it.’ And he was like, ‘But they’re wrong.’ Like, as if that was supposed to make me feel better.”

Die My Love, which is currently playing in theaters, was adapted from Ariana Harwicz’s novel of the same name. It follows a writer named Grace (Lawrence) who, after moving to a remote Montana house with her husband Jackson (Pattinson), experiences a psychological and emotional breakdown following the birth of their child.

Lawrence previously told The Hollywood Reporter that the prolonged press tour for the film, as it first premiered in Cannes in May, has been “such a weird experience.” Partly because the film’s themes are particularly personal for the actress, as she’s been open about struggling with postpartum depression following the birth of her second child.

“It feels so private and personal, the movie, that it feels so violating that everybody’s going to watch it and discuss it eventually,” she said, adding, “It’s insane to me that this is just a normal part of the process. It feels like your whole diary is about to just be ripped apart by everybody. It feels very personal and weird. But I’m super grateful, I can’t wait for people to see it.”

Critics’ reviews of Die My Love have been decidedly mixed, with many praising Lawrence’s performance. The film currently sits with a 74 percent critics score on Rotten Tomatoes and a 45 percent audience score. THR‘s chief film critic, David Rooney, wrote in his review, “Ramsay’s film is hard to love, but that beautiful visual casts such an intense glow it pulls the whole unwieldy thing together.”